a sense of joy and then a panic

Yes, I know I just referred to my own school by its derogatory nickname. 

Anyway, do you?  I will happily place you in either the Soft, Medium, or Hard social sciences.  Yes, there is a difference.  Yes, these are a combination of stereotypes, anecdotes, first-hand experience, and observation, and by no means am I to be held liable for you picking the wrong major just because you're its stereotype.  Just take this quiz, bitch. 

1.  What do you wear to class?
    a.  A cool quirky outfit I put together on my own.  And cool ethnic jewelry made of beads and wood.
    b.  Business attire.  Or, clubbing attire.  Heels, makeup, accessories.  School is practice for the business world. 
    c.  Sweats.  Sneakers.  Duh.

2.  What race are you?
    a.  Well, I'm 1/16th Cherokee... or, I'm too many things to count.  Race is a social construct.
    b.  White, or Mixed.
    c.  A minority.  Particularly Chinese or Indian.  Or, I'm an Aryan blonde.

3.  What type of books do you like to read?
    a.  Dusty old books that have never been checked out of the library but are totally genius.
    b.  Glossy books with Dramatic Titles: Long-winded Explanations written by a smiling white guy in a suit.
    c.  I don't read books.  If I have to do it, they'd better be entertaining and full of pop culture gimmicks.

4.  Preferred class readings?
    a.  Tomes.
    b.  Articles.
    c.  Textbooks.

5.  How do you like your exams?
    a.  In subjective take-home essay form.  I quake under pressure.
    b.  5 out of 8 IDs, 2 out of 3 short answers, 1 out of 2 essays.  In two hours, preferably.
    c.  Problems with multiple questions about fictional countries with names like Toyland and McDonaldsia.

6.   What's your most important cause?
    a.  Social constructs.  Ok, fine, women's rights. 
    b.  War and/or human rights and/or AIDS.
    c.  Keeping inflation at 2%.  I mean, 3%.  I mean, whatever's good for my stocks.

7.  How do your parents feel about your major?
    a.  Shh.  Mom says we can't talk about that anymore, it's bad for Dad's heart.
    b.  Okay.  They keep saying, "well, at least she can go to law school."
    c.  Great!  My dad has friends at LSE and they'll make sure I can get in there for study abroad.

8.  You want boys in your classes?
    a.  Only if they're gay or effeminate, because I don't want to feel threatened in my safe space.
    b.  Hell yes!  I'm always looking to snag the next Barack Obama or JP Morgan. 
    c.  Fuck no.  I separate work and play.

9.  Sentence association!  "My shirt was made in China."
    a.  That's interesting, you know, given the history of textiles in China, and why are you making that comment, does that make you feel more validated as an American, and China has really cheapend itself, but really this can be explained historically, if you read this book by this one guy he has a really good point that China...
    b.  Yeah, so have you heard?  China's going to kick the U.S. off the top and we'll see who'll be laughing then.
    c.  Fucking China and their FUCKING cheap labor and low prices.  What's wrong with child labor again?

10.  Life after college?
    a.  Fuck if I know, man.  Grad school?  I'm not done studying!
    b.  Law school, business school, a master's program, an internship, a fellowship, the state department, the UN, Wall Street.  Yes, I'm applying to everything.
    c.  Business school.

11.  Involved in student government?
    a.  Uh, ha ha.  Is that a joke?
    b.  Absolutely.  I have intense class pride.  Go team!  I want to make changes and enhance dialogue.  Vote for me, I'm super cool!
    c.  I'd rather get good grades, thanks.  This school is a mere stepping stone to world domination.

12.  Do you like to ask questions during lectures?
    a.  Isn't that the point of attending class, having an engaging discussion with the professor?
    b.  No.  I like to tell the professor things they don't know.  Or correct them, even better. 
    c.  No.  But I answer the professor's questions with speed and accuracy.

13.  How many languages do you speak?
    a.  English and the language of the country I'm really interested in studying right now.
    b.  English and whatever I signed up for to get rid of this dumbass language requirement.
    c.  English and my actual, native language.  I'm bilingual.

14.  Do you make friends with other people in your classes?
    a.  Yeah.  It's easy to bond with people you have intense discussions with.
    b.  No.  I hate everyone in my classes.  They're either stupid or potential competition.
    c.  Sure, why not.  I need somebody to check problem sets with.

15.  Good at math?
    a.  NOO. 
    b.  It stops at "derivative".
    c.  I wish writing papers were as easy.

16.  How do you feel about America?
    a.  It's diseased.  A wasteland.
    b.  It needs to get over itself before it gets nuked by like 20 countries.
    c.  It's not perfect, but it is very successful, and success is good.

17.  Which newspapers do you read?
    a.  Village Voice.
    b.  New York Times.
    c.  Wall Street Journal.

If you scored mostly "a"s, answer this:
a.  So those ethnic beads.  Where'd you get 'em?
    1.  My dying grandmother.  --> SOFT, THIRD WORLD (TWEEDLEDEE, TWEEDLEDUM).
    2.  Anthropologie.  -->  SOFT, FIRST WORLD (HUMPTY DUMPTY).
If you scored mostly "b"s, answer this:
a.  You hate America why, exactly?
    1.  It raped my people.  -->  MEDIUM, THIRD WORLD (LION AND THE UNICORN).
    2.  It means I get dirty looks when I go to Europe on vacation.  -->  MEDIUM, FIRST WORLD (WHITE QUEEN).
If you scored mostly "c"s, answer this:
a.  Why do you want to earn a lot of money again?
    1.  Gotta give back to relatives in the homeland.  -->  HARD, THIRD WORLD (THE MESSENGERS).
    2.  Gotta buy Prada somehow.  -->  HARD, FIRST WORLD (RED QUEEN).

SOFT?  Anthropology, sociology, women's studies, ethnic studies.  Cultured.  Careless.

TWEEDLEDEE AND TWEEDLEDUM:  "If that there King was to wake... you'd go out - bang! - just like a candle!"  Obsessed with blackface and yellow fever, you give back to your people, whoever they may be, by discovering terrible secrets hidden in the collective unconscious of the West.  The rest of us, naturally, feel like shit upon listening to your long rants about how all of academia is just a perpetuation of occidentalism. 

HUMPTY DUMPTY:  "It's a cravat, child, and a beautiful one, as you say.  It's a present from the White King and Queen.  There now!"  You wish you had a people to give back to, but you don't.  Instead you will aim to analyze other people's people and hopefully get a wing dedicated to you in the Museum of Natural History.  They're very interesting creatures, aren't they?  Look at them, scurrying around under your microscope.   Oops, that one caught on fire.  Whoopsie!

MEDIUM?  Political science, history.  Polished.  Predatory.

THE LION AND THE UNICORN:  "Then hand round the plum-cake, Monster... Fair play with the cake, you know!"  Che Guevara's a fuckin' poser compared to you.  You regale, bore, and irritate your classmates with your self-righteous, proof-less stories about civil wars you survived and how the poor really do need help, because you know, man, you've been there.  Except, how poor can you be, if you attend this school?  Hmm. 

THE WHITE QUEEN:  "Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast!"  You really just want to go to law school, wear heels, marry a diplomat, and look good doing it.  Sure, world peace is nice and all, but it's never going to happen, despite what you might write in your papers.  You lie a lot.  Oh well.  It's more important that YOU get an A so that YOU get into law school.  Because that's the first step to success. 

HARD?  Economics.  Ambitious.  Assured.

THE MESSENGERS:  "He's only just out of prison, and he hadn't finished his tea when he was sent in... so you see he's very hungry and thirsty."  As much as you'd like to keep the future piles of money you're going to make, it's all going to the villages back home because they need it.  Either that, or you're going to forgo making future piles of money so you can become a corrupt government official back home.  Because they need that too. 

THE RED QUEEN:  "Just as I'm five times as rich as you are, and five times as clever!"  Those future piles of money?  Oh, you're keeping all of it.  You believe we just hate you cuz we're jealous.  But it's not really true.  Because Prada looks bad on you.  Bitch.

from memegirls. The theme is you as a child.

1. My obsession was: the Spice Girls, drama, action, dinosaurs

2. My favorite TV show was: Ksatria Hitam, Kung Fu: The Legend Continues, MTV Asia Hit List

3. My favorite book was: The Hobbit, Caddie Woodlawn, Fairy Tales (a book, I swear), People (not the magazine)

4. My favorite movie was: Space Jam, Men in Black, Fantasia, The Lion King, Jurassic Park

5. My favorite food was: fried chicken, rice, ketchup, teh sosro (bottled extremely sweet tea), puff pastries, semur (a particular kind of soup-sauce that meatballs are cooked in), ramen noodles, gurame (gourami is the Western spelling - it's the best fish in the world), air kelapa (coconut water, right out of the coconut).  Yeah, it's easy to like food when you grow up in Indonesia.

6. My LEAST favorite food was: "sawi" - this godawful Indonesian vegetable dish the color of vomit with the texture of slime

7. My favorite stuffed animal was: uh... I didn't have a favorite, though I did like my cat families, my starfish "Starla", and my stuffed giraffe whose head was always too heavy for his neck to bear, and ended up a decrepit hunchback of sorts

8. My favorite color was: pink, and then blue

9. My favorite thing about school/preschool was: my teachers, my friends, what we did on the fun days, like Friday, our presentations, arts and crafts, environmental themes, recess

10. My favorite game was: it became Monopoly - before then I didn't have any

11. My favorite toy was: Lego, the Paradise edition, and Barbie

12. My best friend was: Lexi

13. My worst enemy was: Nonon

14. My "boyfriend"/"girlfriend" was: I had a crush named Rikki

15. My teacher's name was: uh... the ones that made the strongest impressions were Ibu Lola, Pak Craig, and Pak Dave (ibu = mrs or ma'am, and pak = mr.).  Bu Lola was my 3rd and 5th grade teacher and she was tough, but awesome, and told ghost stories on the last day of the year, and chided us for not wanting to do so well on tests that we'd commit suicide, like Japanese students, and Pak Craig taught us Maori songs and dances, and he and Pak Dave really encouraged my writing.  Pak Dave was I think the first teacher I was very attached to.  I ran to his house and gave him a poem when he was leaving to go back to America (we lived in the same suburb) - I'm pretty sure the poem involved something about scratching my hand on barbed wire, or something - like that was how him leaving made me feel. 

16. The name I called my mom was: Mama, then Mom

17. The name I called my dad was: Daddy, then Ayah

18. Another grown up in my life was: erm... Uncle Pal, one of my dad's friends.  He has a vacation house in the mountains in Bandung and there's this really cute picture of me holding one of the baby goats in his backyard.  We went there a lot.  One time he saw me reading a book at the dinner table on ghosts and he chastised me for it, and he was like, "You want a ghost story, I'll tell you a ghost story."  He proceeded to tell a story about a guy who was out at night and kept seeing people, like becak drivers, warung owners, satay vendors, who all had... no face.  And it really creeped me out.

19. My favorite thing to pretend was: that there was some threat to our school - aliens or ghosts or an evil military or something - and we, the students, all had to join forces and fight it

20. I was scared of: ghosts - lots and lots of ghosts, and that's pretty much it.  Oh, and getting lost in the grocery store/ abandoned by my parents.

And the bonus question...

What did you want to be when you grew up? "the first female soccer player", a paleontologist, and finally, towards the end, a lawyer

Ways to Waste Time and Avoid Doing Schoolwork:

1)  Reclassify your music on iTunes by creating new genres for them.  Oh dear, iTunes really should not have let me do that.  Damn.

2)  Read reviews by Mutant Reviewers From Hell.  They're awesome.  It's too bad it's so hard to get on the staff.  I'll also steal a meme from them!
    Forum (uh... internet) Handle: sri_angry_angel
    Will Be Played In The Movie By:  Desy Ratnasari!  I used to love her as a kid! 
    Current Favorite Movies: Akira, Shaun of the Dead, Alien
    Current Favorite TV Shows: DB & Z, Law & Order: Criminal Intent, Aqua Teen Hunger Force
    Current Favorite Books:  Passage to India, Macho Camacho's Beat, The Crossing
    Current Favorite Video Games: Uh... none
    Hobbies: listening to space-electronica, wasting time, justifying wasting time, drinking tea  

3)  Eat food, make tea, talk to your mother about nothing.

4)  Make a big deal about going out into the snow to get Starbucks, bundling yourself and all, and then decide not to go, and take it all off again.

5)  Find places to go while you're doing your study abroad, ignoring details like - how the fuck am I going to get there when it's effectively the same as trying to go from Los Angeles to New York?

6)  Listen to new music.  Rate the new music.  Dream about potential music videos to the new music.

7)  Look for t-shirts by your favorite bands.  Bonus if those bands are from Great Britain.  Double bonus if they're from Iceland!

8)  Buy t-shirts... for no reason!

that's the title of a will-be chapter of Ilium Agonistes, by the way... it'll probably be in book 2, Aionos...

I'm still sick.  The illness has now moved into my lungs and taken roost there, where it is making me cough so hard that it feels like my throat is actually being torn into bloody chunks.  Sorry for the graphics.  I've used the word blood too many times in this here last chapter.  My cold/flu/disease is evidently making me lose my mind (Friends' Ross: Am I?  Am I?  Am I lo-o-o-osing my mind?) because I am actually trying to buy doujinshi. 

But before I get into that debacle, I'll first tell you all about my latest computer escapade.  I'm a hypochondriac computer owner.  But to be fair, my computer is cursed/possessed.  I've reformatted it once already, and that's sort of like an exorcism for computers since it wipes the hard drive completely clean.  The reformatting made me even more paranoid, though, and I think my number may be blocked by the tech people because I call with every little thing.  Or used to, anyway. 

So the latest thing: disregarding that my iPod refuses to update itself properly (well, it does... it's never damaged, and the problem fixes itself and... yeah), when I tried to watch a YouTube video it would skip about every three seconds.  I thought it was just that video.  Nope.  So then I went to DailyMotion, my new favorite site because it apparently hasn't been bought out by FUNimation's goons, and that was skipping too.  What the fuck?  Should I be telling people that my internet videos had died?  However, I stayed calm... relatively... closed all my windows (including my last LJ update that hadn't yet been posted...), cache cleaned this bitch, and then tried again.  It works now. 

So yes, I'm also trying to buy doujinshi.  There's one in particular that I want to get my little hands on - it's called "huu-jin hun-jin shishi".  I've seen images from it and I want it like whoa.  Well, not actually like whoa.  It's more like I'm just bored and I don't want to edit an article called "Opium and Heroin in Iran" that's 46 pages long (do you blame me?).  Anyway, that one I'm searching for - Huu-jin Hun-jin Shishi - is like a retelling of the entire saga (it's 100 pages long) with just a little more G/CC thrown in for good measure, and humorous shit, but none of it is explicit, it's more like... if someone who could pull off romance was doing DBZ.  Doesn't that sound wonderful?  Well, it does to me, so shut the fuck up!

However, I have come to some disturbing conclusions about buying doujinshi.  This one store I'm at now - Mandarake (Japanese mandrake, I guess) - has the following options: Hentai, Yaoi, and non-Hentai.  I learned while on this site Adult Fanfiction that "hentai" also means "heterosexual".  Of course, everything must have disturbingly graphic sex scenes.  Ah well, I really am a woman - words get me much better than pictures - and I marvel at men's lack of imagination that they must have "everything spelled out" for them.  This one that I've actually heard of, Dragonball H (H standing for Hentai, naturally), is actually one of the few on this Mandarake site that is actually... sold out.  It's all couples, apparently, which is why it's sold out (regardless that my couple is on the cover... looking very innocent, at that).  But still - a DBZ doujinshi, sold out?  This show is never going to go away.  Anyhow it still gives me the heebie jeebies. 

Another site, Animaxis, has the following "series" - the Deluxe Edition.  It doesn't seem to do anything other than, uh, plagiarize the original comic books and draw them... over.  And the point of that is what?

Shopping Mall Japan is way too, uh, Japanese.  When I clicked on a link it just went to this Yahoo JP page with nothing in particular of interest on it except little ads that said, with the kanji above, "sites that are harmful to children are blocked for nothing!"  Yeah, ok.  I left that site pretty quickly.

The RinkYa site, with a similar format to Shopping Mall Japan, when you click on Books/Magazines has some random words that are supposedly product descriptions that say "I make love a younger sister" and "He is a boy from a flower".  Along with "Inconvenient truth".  And then I got completely confused by their choices - Juvenile Comic, Female Comic, Male Comic, and then Eichi (H) is under Juvenile Comic, and just... no. 

Aloha Anime.  Don't go here.  Just... please don't.  You'll regret it.  Your brain and eyes will regret it.  All I can say is, why the fuck do people have hentai doujinshi about Pan, who is 14 in GT?  Sigh.  Maybe it's not the site.  Maybe it's my fandom.  Maybe my fandom is fucked up.  Well, actually, I already knew that.  DBZ seems to attract society's delinquents, sadly enough.  And me.  Heh heh.

Twinbells Doujinshi is so snooty that it doesn't even have DBZ doujinshi.  Well, fuck you too.

The Doujinshi-Online "reference site" that haughtily says that it does not and will not ever offer scans (*rolls eyes*) reminds me that: there are way too many doujinshi artists that insist on CLAMP-ifying DBZ characters instead of sticking with Toriyama's "ugly" style.  I mean, if I wanted to read pretty manga, I'd read pretty manga.  Please don't make them look like fuckin' Fushigi Yugi, you know.  Also, Bulma's hair is not pink or purple.  But then again she changes it so often, who knows (har har).  Oh, yeah, and that, as usual, there are way too many B/V doujinshi out there if you consider how dumb this ship is (about that whole fucking family, actually.  Sorry Trunks fan girls, but enough is enough).  Also, "Gracias Returns" is not gramatically correct in any language. 

WHOA.  HOLD UP.  I THINK I FOUND IT.  Translated from the Japanese, it's "Glorious 1984-1995 AD" (the years DB and Z were in production). 

Sadly, that didn't help my quest for it at all.  Son of a fuck.  And the quest continues.  I wonder if any of these people would like... sell theirs... for $50...

I scratched my face rifling through eBay's offerings.  It's because of all the doujinshi related to DBZ that could exist... of course eBay pretty much has the yaoi.  The hunt for greatness is a dangerous thing.  There's also other great offerings on eBay unrelated to my fandom... like pokemon furry yiffy doujinshi... Powerpuff Girls porn... Not mine, of course.  Not that that's too surprising.  If I owned that doujinshi I wouldn't want to sell it either.



Also, I've made a meme.
Name 7 Things on Your Desk
tissues, Burt's Bees chapstick, rice crackers, Jane magazine, pictures of my parents, chai tea, a Shiva statue

Name 7 Things on Your Wall(s)
a red Chinese decoration thingy, a National Geographic world map, a map of Australia, a Ghostbusters cut-out, a Nebraska calendar, pretty circles of blue and purple giftwrap, cut-out pics of ice, cut-out pics of Melbourne

Name 7 Books/Items on Your Bookshelf
Kamus Indonesia Inggris, Terror in the Mind of God, Globalization: What's New?, Globalization and its Discontents, Build a Better Life By Stealing Office Supplies, The Road, DBZ #10

Last 7 Songs You Played
"This is Your Life" - the Dust Brothers, "Pure Morning" - Placebo, "I Know" - Placebo, "Wonderboy" - Tenacious D, "Right Now" - Korn, "Got the Life" - Korn, "Hurt" - NIN

7 Web sites You've Bookmarked (and please don't do the standard, like facebook)
Snowblood Apple: Movie Reviews A-Z, Toonami Digital Arsenal, H.R. Giger: The Official Web site, Studies in the Political Economy of New Order Indonesia, .a wind of such violence. the work of sylvia plath, The Uyghur-English Dictionary Project, Street Music of Java

7 Things You Want to Eat Right Now
dried mangoes, fresh mangoes, Oriental flavor ramen noodles, shrimp crackers, mint chip ice cream, banana pancakes, shabu shabu

7 Places You Want to Be Right Now
Home in Lincoln, Jakarta, Cheyenne (WY), Custer National Park (SD), Melbourne, Alaska, northern California

memes credit to this place, whatever its real name is.

10 Movies That Have Made Me Cry (not in order according to movie's merit or number of tears shed):

1)  Hotel Rwanda - nuns being separated from their charges, fuckin' everything
2)  Fearless - the end...
3)  Blood Diamond - best death speech ever
4)  Hero - ah, martyrdom
5)  Gandhi - I was very unprepared for this ending
6)  A.I.: Artificial Intelligence - so beautiful it hurt
7)  Bowling for Columbine - scenes from the Columbine surveillance videos
8)  Evita - "the actress hasn't learned the lines you'd like to hear/ she's sad for her country, sad to be defeated by her own weak body..."
9)  Hamlet (Kenneth Branagh, not Mel Gibson) - Ophelia's death, and then Hamlet's
10)  The Lion King - realizing Mufasa was dead during Hakuna Matata... that was great

10 TV Guilty Pleasures (in particular order, and classified as shows I wouldn't normally tell other people I watch, unlike Grey's Anatomy, which is like the norm, and whose popularity actually makes me slightly ashamed to like it):

1)  DBZ (like, duhrr...) - "it's over NINE THOUSAAAAND!"
2)  Aqua Teen Hunger Force - despite the recent Chicago, er, "situation", still the best show for people with a crack addict's sense of humor
3)  Robot Chicken - these guys know how to do pop culture commentary.  Plus they actually made a really great DBZ parody
4)  King of the Hill - it's Texas, but it's more like Nebraska, when no one's looking
5)  America's Next Top Model - cat fight!  meow!
6)  Pimp My Ride - "you've officially been pimped!" wtf?  oh well, I feel bad for most of these poor L.A. dropout losers
7)  Most Extreme Elimination Challenge - adventures in dubbing, pot, and insomnia, but the Japanese are asking for it
8)  Charmed - soooo cheesy but soooo addictive
9)  Scare Factor - sort of like Punk'd, except with radioactive waste, poltergeists, and Big Foot!
10)  American Idol - listening to Simon increases my self esteem

10 Favorite TV Shows (whether you can be proud of them or not, in order):

1)  DBZ - "gotta make this quick, or it's gonna be bad..."
2)  The X-Files - "what is this?"  "this is where you pucker up and kiss my ass."
3)  Aqua Teen Hunger Force - "I thought you said TV was bad for us?" "It is - but we fuckin' need it."
4)  Midsomer Murders - "is the body count always this high around here?"
5)  Grey's Anatomy - "I'm in this.  I'm in this for the long haul."
6)  Law & Order - "I wake up everyday hoping to find an honest man."
7)  King of the Hill - "so are you Chinese or Japanese?"  "We Laotian."  "The ocean?  What ocean?" "From Laos, stupid!  It's a landlocked country in Southeast Asia!" .... "so, are you Chinese or Japanese?"
8)  Friends - "when the revolution comes, I will have to kill you all."
9)  Iron Chef - "if memory serves me right..."
10)  Most Extreme Elimination Challenge - "It's Hank the Happy Hemorrhoid!"

10 Great Movies for Halloween (in... semi-particular order, bwahahaha)

1)  Halloween - can't argue with the classic
2)  Silent Hill - creepy and cool
3)  Th13een Ghosts - it's just funny
4)  Alien - in space, no one can hear you scream
5)  Salem's Lot - in a small town, no one can hear you scream "vampires!"
6)  Rose Red - bad house!  bad house! 
7)  A Tale of Two Sisters - polite but chilly
8)  Resident Evil - bang bang, zombie zombie
9)  Shaun of the Dead - bang bang, zombie zombie, ha ha, bye bye!
10)  Kwaidan - if you're need to impress worldly, artsy people

10 Feel Good Songs (definitely in no particular order, and a list that changes very often)

1)  "Du Hast" - Rammstein - "Nein!  Nein!"  Also, a great AMV
2)  "Smack My Bitch Up" - the Prodigy - I wish I could smack bitches up
3)  "Stupid MF" - Mindless Self Indulgence - scream this while driving down a highway and scare the shit out of your mom
4)  "Tell Me Baby" - Red Hot Chili Peppers - now this is a driving song, so happy and optimistic and all-American!
5)  "Miracle Drug" - U2 - "and I've had enough of romantic love, I'll give it up, I'll give it up..." nice for walking through airports
6)  "The City Lights" - Umbrellas - pretty, sad, and cold, but ultimately a mood-lifter
7)  "Cherry Blossom Girl" - Air - light, fluffy, and Lost in Translation
8)  "Theme of Laura" - Silent Hill OST - a resolute strumming guitar and a bittersweet melody, the soundtrack to my life
9)  "B.O.B." - Outkast - despite the title, "Bombs Over Baghdad" is the fastest, perkiest song ever
10)  "Stay Fly" - Three Six Mafia feat. a lot of people - "I ain't Denzel but I know I'm a star" deserves an Oscar, imo

must... fucking... write... gaaaahrgh...
okay, got to page 69. 

10 Things I Think People Don't Like About Me:

1)  Sarcastic/cynical - hey, I've been disbarred from seeing people because of this quality!
2)  I'm not a very social person, you could say that, and tend to lend myself to awkward silences
3)  I'm highly defensive about certain things, and I don't take criticism very well, not gonna lie
4)  Jumping to conclusions - it's exhausting to fix them
5)  I can snap at people when I get mad, even people I love
6)  My moodiness, especially for perky people
7)  I am extremely judgmental - judgmental like whoa - I look down on people I see as dumb
8)  I do my homework and get As in classes - people don't seem to see the correlation
9)  I don't like chick flicks - this tends to annoy shallow girls
10)  I don't do chores, which means I can't be one of those cute little Asian maid girlfriends/suitemates

10 Favorite Childhood Fairytales (in order!)

1)  The Musicians of Bremen - Communism, singing animals, freedom!
2)  The Girl and the Dead Man - so fucking weird, involves watching over grinning corpses, look it up
3)  Puss in Boots - cats kick fuckin' ass
4)  The Red Shoes - the most morbid fairytale ever... the shoes that won't stop dancing, until the dancer meets a woodcutter...
5)  The Snow Queen - Christian imagery galore, but this story proves C.S. Lewis is a plagiarizer, and a bad one at that
6)  The Story of the Youth Who Went Forth to Learn What Fear Was - "if only I could shudder!" said the boy
7)  The Frog Prince (original) - the princess breaks the spell when she throws the frog against the wall in disgust
8)  Rapunzel (original) - the evil witch throws the prince from the window and snips off Rapunzel's hair, oh noes, what'll they do?
9)  Hansel and Gretel - the world's smartest children go up against the world's creepiest villainess
10)  The Ugly Duckling - read the full-length with good illustrations, it's heartbreaking

Ten movies you’d watch over and over: Lord of the Rings 1, 2, and 3; Men in Black; Akira; Jurassic Park; Shaun of the Dead (must buy this one); Independence Day; Ghost in the Shell 2: Innocence (yeah, what a feel good movie); The Lost World

Nine people you enjoy the company of: "most people tend to piss me off if I see too much of them. the exceptions know who they are." - Kim (sorry, dear, this answer was just so perfect, I had to steal it)

Eight things you’re wearing: fluffy blue socks that are rather reminescent of shag carpets, silvery-blue jeans that are a tad too short, underwear (2), a white polo shirt from Old Navy with a pink grass-grazing ungulate of some sort stitched on as a cheap logo, headphones, "my hair down"

Seven things on your mind: wondering if my shortness of breath is coming back, when I'll read my Macroeconomics chapter, remembering that I have a problem set due next week (fuck!), becoming certain I'm going to drop Chinese, wondering if Professor Cooley thinks I'm a crazy stalker, contemplating how to buy doujinshi, contemplating learning Japanese so I can read said doujinshi

Six objects you touch every day: my laptop, my watch, my ID, the bathroom faucet, my thumbs

Five things you do everyday: play hypochondriac, take medication o_O, turn on my computer, eat, breathe

Four bands or musical artists that you couldn’t live without: Radiohead, U2, Coldplay, Madonna

Three of your favorite songs of the moment: SlipKnot - Vermilion Part 2, Korn - Twisted Transistor, Ladytron - Destroy Everything You Touch

Two people who have influenced your life the most: my mom and dad

One person who has been nice to you today: my boss

Basic info...
[1] Name: Nadia
[2] Birthday: August 4, 1987
[3] Zodiac Sign: Leo
[4] Sex: Female
[5] What Time Is It: 7:19

Last Person Who...
[6] Called You: Ryan
[7] Slept In Your Bed: probably Kim, taking a cat nap
[8] Saw You Cry: my mom
[9] Made You Cry: Barnard.  Not a person, but still.
[10] Spent The Night At Your House: My "house"?  Last time someone actually spent the night at my house was this past summer, after Lindsey and I saw The Grudge and didn't want to sleep alone.
[11] You Shared A Drink With: Kim
[12] You Went To The Movies With: my mom
[13] You Went To The Mall With: my mom... most recently, I think I went alone
[14] Yelled At You: Lucia, telling me to get more counseling
[15] Sent You An Email: Federal Student Aid
[16] Said They Were Gonna Kill You: hmm... probably Kim

Have you ever...
[16] Taken A Picture Of Yourself With A Milk Mustache And Sent It To The Milk People: no
[17] Said "I Love You" And Meant It: yes
[18] Gotten Into A Fight With Your Dog/Cat/Bird/Etc: yes.  They're either me bitching at her and yelling at her and then asking for her forgiveness, or it's the two of us being bitchy and uncooperative together
[19] Been To New York: Yes, live there, unfortunately
[20] Been To Florida: Yes
[21] California: Yes
[22] Hawaii: No
[23] Mexico: No
[24] China: No
[25] Canada: No
[26] Danced Naked: I don't think so
[27] Dreamed Something Really Crazy And Then It Happens The Next Day: no, my dreams are too crazy to actually happen
[28] Stalked Someone: define stalked
[29] Had A Mud Bath: No
[30] Wished You Were The Opposite Sex: Not really, no.  Not that I want to be a girl either. 
[31] Had An Imaginary Friend:  I didn't really have these.  I pretended I was a baby ostrich, pretended my stuffed animals were alive, sang to lightbulbs, but I didn't have imaginary friends.
[32] What time is it: 7:26
[33] Apples Or Bananas: apples.  they keep doctors away.
[34] Red Or Blue: Red
[35] Backstreet Boys Or N'Sync: uh... Backstreet Boys, because they have spawned fewer annoying commercial successes that now won't go away
[36] Target or WalMart: Target
[37] Spring Or Fall: Fall
[38] Santa Or Rudolph: Rudolph, i feel sorry for him
[39] Math Or English: english, without a doubt
[40] What Are You Going To Do After You Finish This Survey: get started on "A Civil Action"/write about the initiation rites of the Centurion/kill myself/breathe
[41] What Was The Last Food You Ate: is cappuchino a food?
[42] High School Or College: believe it or not... high school.  You know why?  Less work, got to live at home, more people to make fun of, more readily available social satire.  Only pro of college is that I can listen to my iPod on campus and not get yelled at.
[43] Are You Bored: bored is not the right word
[44] How Many Of Your Buddies Are On: 0, probably, none of my friends are really into AIM
[45] Last Movie You Saw: Curse of the Golden Flower, which was great, by the way
[46] Last Noise You Heard: "Theme of Laura", Silent Hill OST

Friends...
[47] Laughs The Weirdest: probably me, honestly, people tell me my laugh is very recognizable.  But Lindsey has a pretty strange laugh too.
[48] Will Grow Up And Be A Model: Lucia
[49] Going To Have The Most Kids: Christina's going to have a platoon of Greek babies
[50] Have You Known The Longest: Lexi
[51] Loudest: Amanda
[52] Is The Quietest: Yue and Kim tie in quietude
[54] Will Fill This Out And Send It Back The Soonest: Probably Kim, since I know she's doing it across from me
[55] Who Is The Funniest: for my current kind of humor, Kim and Lucia
[56] Who Is The Moodiest? god, probably me.  I'm so fucking moody.  Lindsey and Kim are too though.
[57] Who Can You Tell Most Of Your Secrets To: Kim, Lucia
[58] Who Do You Usually Go To About All Of Your Problems: Kim, Lucia

The Last Few Questions...
[60] Last Time You Went Out Of State: out of state?  What's my home state?  If it's Nebraska, then it was last week, to NY. 
[62] Things You Like In A Guy/girl: confidence, charisma, emotional strength and maturity
[63] Weirdest Thing About You: I design covers to books I haven't written instead of studying Macroeconomics?  Oh, oh, how about that I ship G/CC and may be the only hard core DBZ fan in the ivy league?  Yeah, I think that's it.
[64] Do You Have Crush On Someone: yeah.  A professor and an upper East Side brat.
[65] Do They Know: I kind of hope not, but they might have some idea
[66] Do You Have A Boyfriend/Girlfriend: No, and don't think I could handle one, but maybe

My Bloginality is INTJ!!!

As an INTJ, you are Introverted, iNtuitive, Thinking, Judging.
This makes your primary focus on Introverted Thinking with an Extraverted Intution.

This is defined as a NT personality, which is part of Carl Jung's Rational (Knowledge Seeking) type, and more specifically the Mastermind or Scientist.

You aren't as openly affectionate as some of you NT counterparts, and this may cause other bloggers to assume you aren't as friendly. Your ideas and actual applications for these ideas are brilliant, however, and you might be more likely to create something masterful on your journal.

It's the Wednesday Mind Hump from BD Insanity! 

1.  Name a song that makes you smile.
    "Du Hast" by Rammstein
2.  Name a food that makes you smile.
    Yakult... 8,000,000,000 bacteria, baby!
3.  Name a person that makes you smile.
    Kimmy makes me smile!
4.  Name a movie that makes you smile.
    "Little Miss Sunshine"
5.  Name a website that makes you smile.       
    SomethingAwful

Here's a cute meme:

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 123.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions.
5. Don't search around and look for the "coolest" book you can find. Do what’s actually next to you.

From "The Tough Guide to Fantasyland", by Diana Wynne Jones: "Before that he will guide you, tell you what to do in the face of strange customs, and even sometimes instruct you in how to perform minor MAGICS." 

Aye, matey!