the writing life. such as it is.
Dec. 23rd, 2011 04:08 amI published two stories this year that were "the kind of thing I want to write," by which I mean, more in line with my mission of being informed by socio-political concerns: "Princess Courage" at Beneath Ceaseless Skies, and "Absolute Zero," in Creature! Thirty Years of Monsters (reprinted in Fantasy). Francesca, thank you for your thoughtful emails. I'm just very bad with emails, and online communication in general, these days. If I see that an email is not related to work or school, it goes way on the back burner. I did really try to make "Princess Courage" not about "imperialists = bad," although of course I do think imperialism is a scourge upon the earth. Reading Charles Glass's interview/list of books about Americans abroad yields this wonderful-yet-simplistic truism:
In the interview that I did for "Absolute Zero," I mentioned something about being biracial, I believe, contributing to how I wrote this story. I totally stand by that, and this song reinforces that. Of course I don't want to imply anything so pathetic as one-of-these-cultures-is-monstrous (jesus christ), but the sense of belonging/un-belonging, the where-the-fuck-did-I-come-from, the hiding in plain sight in Nebraska, the if-I-join-your-kingdom-can-I-feel-less-bad... that's all there.
There is also a playlist for "Current Story (1)" as well - that story is "Endless Life," which I recently sold to Laird Barron at the new mag Phantasmagorium (huzzah). I'm doing edits for that beast now. Just like "Absolute Zero" was inspired by mishearing a terrible SyFy movie, Carny (yes, really), "Endless Life" was inspired by the rather terrible SyFy program Ghost Hunters International - specifically, the one where they go to South America in search of Hitler's ghost. A lot of my stories seem to be an attempt to explain/extrapolate from some absurdity on SyFy. "Endless Life" has a fantastically appropriate playlist, if I may say so myself - either that, or I have creepy/disturbing/sad taste in music. These are probably the most appropriate songs off that playlist:
Speaking of Indonesia, I'm working on a new novel (yeah...) about a group of young Indonesianists called The Crew. Trying not to put too much pressure on myself to make it perfect this first time around. Trying not to falter under the weight of my own expectations.
So what is the fundamental error of colonialism?When I was writing "Princess Courage" I had a whole playlist called "Current Story 2" that I never got a chance to share - I'd like to do so now. Here are the songs, in actual order (I don't think the zip file put them in order, because it's awesome/I can't be bothered to figure out how to fix this):That’s another subject and not really literary but I suppose its fundamental flaw lies in telling other people what to do in their own countries.
- "Das Tor" - Faun
- "Proven Lands" - Johnny Greenwood (There Will Be Blood OST)
- "Runes and Men" - Death in June
- "Lament for the Wild Geese" - Cruachan
- "Death and All His Friends" - Coldplay
- "Violet" - Hole
- "The Quest I" - Tomandandy (The Hills Have Eyes OST)
- "Scar" - Bear McCreary (Battlestar Galactica OST)
- "Yesterday's Hymn" - Queen Adreena
- "Low Five" - Sneaker Pimps
- "Take Your Time" - Low
- "Horrorshow" - Bat for Lashes
In the interview that I did for "Absolute Zero," I mentioned something about being biracial, I believe, contributing to how I wrote this story. I totally stand by that, and this song reinforces that. Of course I don't want to imply anything so pathetic as one-of-these-cultures-is-monstrous (jesus christ), but the sense of belonging/un-belonging, the where-the-fuck-did-I-come-from, the hiding in plain sight in Nebraska, the if-I-join-your-kingdom-can-I-feel-less-bad... that's all there.
There is also a playlist for "Current Story (1)" as well - that story is "Endless Life," which I recently sold to Laird Barron at the new mag Phantasmagorium (huzzah). I'm doing edits for that beast now. Just like "Absolute Zero" was inspired by mishearing a terrible SyFy movie, Carny (yes, really), "Endless Life" was inspired by the rather terrible SyFy program Ghost Hunters International - specifically, the one where they go to South America in search of Hitler's ghost. A lot of my stories seem to be an attempt to explain/extrapolate from some absurdity on SyFy. "Endless Life" has a fantastically appropriate playlist, if I may say so myself - either that, or I have creepy/disturbing/sad taste in music. These are probably the most appropriate songs off that playlist:
- "Now Now" - St. Vincent
- "If I Had A Heart" - Fever Ray
- "When I Am Queen" - Jack Off Jill
- "Bela Lugosi's Dead (Bauhaus cover)" - Nouvelle Vague
Speaking of Indonesia, I'm working on a new novel (yeah...) about a group of young Indonesianists called The Crew. Trying not to put too much pressure on myself to make it perfect this first time around. Trying not to falter under the weight of my own expectations.