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The happy news is that I am definitely in a reading mood, for the first true time since like... I don't know when. A very long time ago. Middle school or something. My first Amazon batch of this new euphoric period - Pym and Volt - arrived a couple weeks ago, and I haven't gotten the chance to read them because I've been finishing up Hostage to the Devil, by Malachi Martin. [ETA: I got this book on
handful_ofdust's recommendation - thank you!] It's a book about exorcism. Martin was a theologian and Catholic priest, and the bulk of the book consists of 5 case studies of Americans in the 1960s-1970s who underwent the rite of exorcism - each time with a bonafide Catholic priest, not somebody called in by Lorraine Warren. It's non-fiction.
Each case study spends a lot of time developing a nuanced, multi-decade view of the exorcist and the victim of possession, because in this book, that's how long it takes. It's not exactly playing with ouija boards one day and levitating the next week. Evil has to be allowed in, and weaves its way into an authoritative position of a person's life - to the point that it provides ready-made answers and decisions for the person to accept that are designed to separate the person from humanness - over many years. It's a complicated, invisible downward spiral.
My favorite case of the 5 was the last (very long) one, The Rooster and The Tortoise. It's about a scholar of parapsychology, Carl, who the book readily admits has psychic capacities of some kind and eventually was convinced that he was the reincarnation of an ancient Roman and had to go to ancient Aquileia to worship some thing called The Tortoise. The priest, Father Hearty, also has psychic capacities of some kind, and had taken classes from Carl at a university. The whole interaction between psychic phenomena and academia and spirituality was pretty interesting, but what made the story for me was this part where Carl is talking to his mentor, a Tibetan guy named Olde who practices Tibetan Buddhism. Carl had already been in contact with the evil spirit at this point, but was essentially ignoring that it was evil - anyway. He's trying to learn higher planes of consciousness. I was really afraid that Olde was going to turn out to be evil, but not so:
This book taught me a lot about Christianity. Before reading this book, my knowledge of the subject was restricted to my experience living among and being close friends with Christians (for some reason I get along better with the orthodox/LDS variety than the moderate kind), basic pop/mainstream culture exposure, the American religious right in politics, the Unitarian Universalist church (but only marginal exposure to that one), college courses on colonial and U.S. history (not flattering depictions), and Jesus Christ Superstar. And none of those things gave me the same impression of Christianity as Hostage to the Devil does. As strange as it may sound, I never "got" that Christianity was about love before this book. I mean, I'd heard that, certainly seen the church signs saying "Jesus Loves You" and so on, but mostly my impression of Christianity was this and Jesus Camp. I know a lot about - and disagree to the extreme with - what the dominionist religious right does politically and the tactics that they use, and I'm still allergic to Left Behind, but this book was like a small revelation to me. It's kind of funny that a book about exorcism and dealing with evil is what gave me this compassionate, loving view of Christianity, but in the end that's really what it seemed to be about. The emphasis really wasn't on horror, although there were unsettling passages. But then the depiction of evil also wasn't something I expected - I think I was expecting pain or cruelty or hatred, and that's in there, but more than anything else, evil in this book is about meaninglessness and nothingness.
It took a little getting used to - I had particular trouble with the attack on evolution in the chapter Father Bones and Mister Natch, but by the end I felt like I understood, somewhat, what Martin and the exorcists were getting at. Not that I can put it in words right now. I'm planning to reread the book. But I do feel like this was an eye-opening experience for me. It made me think a great deal about evil and humanness and goodness and Earth, and I was quoting passages of the book to my mother, who really didn't want to hear it, I don't think. My mother is an atheist who gave me a horrified "are you becoming Christian? do you believe this guy?" line several times.
And no, I'm not saying Hostage to the Devil made me a Christian. That would be too easy and thoughtless a conversion. And as to whether I "believe" Malachi Martin, I guess I'd say that "I don't think he's lying," to paraphrase Scully. In any case, I'm glad I read it.
And now I get to go write my book about non-evil "demons." Heh, as Lindsey says. At least the Missouri Synod of the Lutheran Church doesn't seem to believe in the gag-inducing deliverance movement (it's probably connected to the Alaskans that believe there's a demon queen on Mt. Everest), so that's something I can leave to my charismatic church. Going off that tangent:
I caught an episode of the new Animal Planet show "Demon Exorcist" last week. I like some paranormal-reality TV, for the same reason I like horror, and I like AP's "The Haunted" quite a bit, but "Demon Exorcist" was hysterically horrible. A lot like "Extreme Paranormal." Suffice it to say that if you catch that show, about a ghost hunter who has some run-in with an evil spirit and then becomes a wannabe John Constantine (I wouldn't be surprised if he somehow got licensed to practice "demonology" over the internet, and no, I do not take "demonology" seriously), the rigorous, devoted exorcists in Hostage to the Devil are the polar opposite of that guy. For one, this guy totally violates the spirit of working under the banner of the power of God instead of making it about the exorcist himself, cuz the exorcist ain't strong enough (has he not seen The Exorcist? "The power of Christ compels you!"), because he wants to be a hero. For two, this is the kind of person who sees anything vaguely malicious and says "demon." No question about mental or physical health. Just straight to "demon," every time. He's a lot like the Warrens. Maybe it's a demonology thing.
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Each case study spends a lot of time developing a nuanced, multi-decade view of the exorcist and the victim of possession, because in this book, that's how long it takes. It's not exactly playing with ouija boards one day and levitating the next week. Evil has to be allowed in, and weaves its way into an authoritative position of a person's life - to the point that it provides ready-made answers and decisions for the person to accept that are designed to separate the person from humanness - over many years. It's a complicated, invisible downward spiral.
My favorite case of the 5 was the last (very long) one, The Rooster and The Tortoise. It's about a scholar of parapsychology, Carl, who the book readily admits has psychic capacities of some kind and eventually was convinced that he was the reincarnation of an ancient Roman and had to go to ancient Aquileia to worship some thing called The Tortoise. The priest, Father Hearty, also has psychic capacities of some kind, and had taken classes from Carl at a university. The whole interaction between psychic phenomena and academia and spirituality was pretty interesting, but what made the story for me was this part where Carl is talking to his mentor, a Tibetan guy named Olde who practices Tibetan Buddhism. Carl had already been in contact with the evil spirit at this point, but was essentially ignoring that it was evil - anyway. He's trying to learn higher planes of consciousness. I was really afraid that Olde was going to turn out to be evil, but not so:
Finally one day Olde seemed to have no more answers. Every soul, he said, which turns to the perfection of Allness is like a closed-petaled lotus flower in the beginning of its search. Under the direction of a master or guide, it opens its eight petals slowly. The master merely assists at this opening. When the petals are open, the tiny silver urn of true knowledge is placed in the center of the lotus flower. And when the petals close in again, the whole flower has become a vehicle of that true knowledge.I've been thinking more about morality lately, and turning against relativism. I think this is actually due to a combination of reading about the use of torture and reading that whole "bankrupt nihilism" epic fantasy smackdown a while back. The idea of a divine goodness and an evil that transcends particular religions really appeals to me, but is probably hopeless naive. But I am a religious naif. All I know is few things bother me more within this subject than listening to Christian exorcists say that Hindus worship Satan because Kali is in their pantheon. I like to believe that people of multiple religions can touch/experience the same basic "Allness" in their worship. But anyway. I'm sure I sound like a moron, so I'll just move on.
Looking away from Carl, Olde said gratingly, almost inimically: "The silver urn can never be placed at the center of your flower. The center is already taken by a self-multiplying negation." A pause. "Filth. Materiality. Slime. Death."
Carl was stunned, literally struck dumb for an instant. Olde walked away from him, still without looking at him. He was about five paces away when Carl broke down. He could only manage a choking exclamation: "Olde! My friend! Olde!"
Olde stopped, his back to Carl. He was utterly calm, motionless, wordless. Then Carl heard him say in a low voice and not particularly to him: "Friend is holy." Carl did not understand what he meant. [...] Olde said only this to Carl, words Carl could never forget: "You have Yama without Yamantaka. Black without white. Nothingness without something."
As Olde turned away again, Carl had a sudden reversal. He seemed for a few instants to be absorbed in "higher prayer." His surge of frustration and anger gave away to contempt and disgust for Olde. Then as he looked at Olde's retreating back, he was filled with a warning fear of Olde and what Olde stood for. Somehow Olde was the enemy. Somehow he, Carl, made up a "we" and "us" with someone else, and Olde could not belong to it.
"Enemy!" he suddenly heard himself shouting after Olde.
Olde stopped, half-turned, and peered over his shoulder at Carl. His face was back to its usual repose. His forehead, cheeks, and mouth were unruffled and smooth. His eyes were calm, wide open, just gentle deeps of impenetrable light, as they usually were. The compassion in them hit Carl like a whip. He did not want anybody's compassion. He took a step back, wanted to speak, but could not get any word out of his throat. He backed away another step, half-turning away, then another step and another half-turn, until he literally found himself moving away. He told himself he had walked away, but deep in himself he knew he had been repelled, had been turned around and propelled away.
Apparently Olde too had his own protectors.
This book taught me a lot about Christianity. Before reading this book, my knowledge of the subject was restricted to my experience living among and being close friends with Christians (for some reason I get along better with the orthodox/LDS variety than the moderate kind), basic pop/mainstream culture exposure, the American religious right in politics, the Unitarian Universalist church (but only marginal exposure to that one), college courses on colonial and U.S. history (not flattering depictions), and Jesus Christ Superstar. And none of those things gave me the same impression of Christianity as Hostage to the Devil does. As strange as it may sound, I never "got" that Christianity was about love before this book. I mean, I'd heard that, certainly seen the church signs saying "Jesus Loves You" and so on, but mostly my impression of Christianity was this and Jesus Camp. I know a lot about - and disagree to the extreme with - what the dominionist religious right does politically and the tactics that they use, and I'm still allergic to Left Behind, but this book was like a small revelation to me. It's kind of funny that a book about exorcism and dealing with evil is what gave me this compassionate, loving view of Christianity, but in the end that's really what it seemed to be about. The emphasis really wasn't on horror, although there were unsettling passages. But then the depiction of evil also wasn't something I expected - I think I was expecting pain or cruelty or hatred, and that's in there, but more than anything else, evil in this book is about meaninglessness and nothingness.
It took a little getting used to - I had particular trouble with the attack on evolution in the chapter Father Bones and Mister Natch, but by the end I felt like I understood, somewhat, what Martin and the exorcists were getting at. Not that I can put it in words right now. I'm planning to reread the book. But I do feel like this was an eye-opening experience for me. It made me think a great deal about evil and humanness and goodness and Earth, and I was quoting passages of the book to my mother, who really didn't want to hear it, I don't think. My mother is an atheist who gave me a horrified "are you becoming Christian? do you believe this guy?" line several times.
And no, I'm not saying Hostage to the Devil made me a Christian. That would be too easy and thoughtless a conversion. And as to whether I "believe" Malachi Martin, I guess I'd say that "I don't think he's lying," to paraphrase Scully. In any case, I'm glad I read it.
And now I get to go write my book about non-evil "demons." Heh, as Lindsey says. At least the Missouri Synod of the Lutheran Church doesn't seem to believe in the gag-inducing deliverance movement (it's probably connected to the Alaskans that believe there's a demon queen on Mt. Everest), so that's something I can leave to my charismatic church. Going off that tangent:
I caught an episode of the new Animal Planet show "Demon Exorcist" last week. I like some paranormal-reality TV, for the same reason I like horror, and I like AP's "The Haunted" quite a bit, but "Demon Exorcist" was hysterically horrible. A lot like "Extreme Paranormal." Suffice it to say that if you catch that show, about a ghost hunter who has some run-in with an evil spirit and then becomes a wannabe John Constantine (I wouldn't be surprised if he somehow got licensed to practice "demonology" over the internet, and no, I do not take "demonology" seriously), the rigorous, devoted exorcists in Hostage to the Devil are the polar opposite of that guy. For one, this guy totally violates the spirit of working under the banner of the power of God instead of making it about the exorcist himself, cuz the exorcist ain't strong enough (has he not seen The Exorcist? "The power of Christ compels you!"), because he wants to be a hero. For two, this is the kind of person who sees anything vaguely malicious and says "demon." No question about mental or physical health. Just straight to "demon," every time. He's a lot like the Warrens. Maybe it's a demonology thing.
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Date: 2011-04-15 05:22 am (UTC)I too think that relativism is, at its heart, bankrupt. I'm not sure how we define the absolutes, precisely, but I'd say that humans pretty much agree on them, actually, and where custom and tradition cause deviations, the deviations are ones that the societies that practice them feel are a sad necessity rather than a joyful good.
I think the book would frighten me, though.
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Date: 2011-04-15 01:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-04-15 01:41 pm (UTC)The universe, alas, does not arrange itself to suit my whims.
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Date: 2011-04-15 01:52 pm (UTC)Just a different way of looking at things.
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Date: 2011-04-15 02:11 pm (UTC)Well, too, any metaphor for goodness is limited by its metaphorical quality--if you think about a reality of endless light, you end up thinking about headaches and heat stroke and insomnia (if you're me, anyway). That's why I liked a line from a Henry Vaughan poem: "there is in God, some say, a deep and dazzling darkness"
There's plenty of evil about in the world, so it's not that I can't believe in cosmic evil--it's just that I'm frightened by the concept. Which, I guess, is as it should be. If there's cosmic evil, then it's a frightening thing.
Lots of religions (or aspects of religions) imagine a constant struggle of good and evil.
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Date: 2011-04-15 02:30 pm (UTC)I don't mean to give you the impression that I think individual people are evil. I've never known a person who seemed irredeemably bad.*** There may be such people, but I wouldn't want to be the one to judge. Most people do all kinds of good and bad things all the time. So when I say I see evidence of evil in the human realm, I don't mean to say, "Oh Neutron Jack, he's eeevil!" or anything like that. But it's in the human realm that I see people taken advantage of, people suffering for want of things that it ought to be easy to have, people teasing or mocking others to no purpose, people destroying things for no good reason (or for reasons I think are bad)--that stuff. And elements of that are what I'd call evil (not all of it. Earthquakes cause suffering, but I don't think they're evil. Viruses cause suffering, but I don't think they're evil, etc.)
***Annnnd, that implies I feel capable of judging. But what I mean is, when I've met miserable, nasty, unfriendly people, it usually also turns out they have some thing or other--something they've done, or some thing they value, or something, that makes them seem less nasty and miserable.
But okay... I see that i'm pretty judgmental, really....
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Date: 2011-04-15 02:43 pm (UTC)I stayed up way too late reading about deliverance ministries (which I mentioned in the post briefly) last night and the Missouri Synod of the Lutheran Church had some really interesting things to say about this movement (which says that demons are everywhere, and cause every ailment ever, and so they must be cast out - like demons make you poor, diabetic, schizophrenic, bald):
"First, it is deeply problematic to conclude on the basis of the Scriptures that human weaknesses that in general may be attributed to the fall (including physical weakness such as illness) are the result of some kind of "demon possession." Moreover, this raises the serious question of a failure to distinguish between the influence of sin and evil upon our lives, and the demonic possession of Christians--the latter of which has no basis in the New Testament. Second, it is possible that among some deliverance ministry advocates Christians are thought not to be "whole" or "fully holy" until they have been rid of certain "vices." Such a view would be contrary to the unanimous testimony of the biblical writers that God has declared us to be totally righteous in his sight through Jesus Christ, who gives us His Spirit that we may grow in a life of sanctification--something that is never perfect in this life. Finally, the deliverance ministry movement seems to fail to recognize the role that human suffering plays in the life of the believer who places his or her trust in the God who in the midst of suffering works out his good purposes (Rom. 8:28-30)."
I think that last sentence is particularly good. Oh me, I'm citing the Lutherans now.
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Date: 2011-04-15 02:53 pm (UTC)Good things can come from human suffering. Empathy, for instance.
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Date: 2011-04-15 02:57 pm (UTC)For example, I was thinking the other day about two women who killed their kids--Susan Smith vs. that more recent woman who'd already left her daughter with her parents, but apparently felt the need to go back, kidnap her, poison her and then dump her body someplace. I don't think they ever even found the actual corpus delicti, just some tape, a car trunk full of corpse-smell and a Google search string with topics like "kill with poison" and "dispose of body".
Smith had a history of abuse, low self-esteem out the wazoo, and genuinely seemed to believe that if she didn't get rid of the proof she was somebody's mother she'd never be able to get the latest guy she was hanging her self-image on to marry her. Her actions were driven by terror and borderline psychotic ideation. The other woman seemed to just literally want to party like she was the teenager she'd been when she got pregnant--she spent the time other people were frantically searching for her daughter doing things like going on week-long binges, flirting and kiting cheques. Between the two, I'd be more likely to call her "evil", but that's mainly because she didn't have reasons/excuses for her actions I could even halfway sympathize with.
Still, is either "evil"? Not on a cosmic scale. For me, it's like BOB from Twin Peaks: Is it worse that a demon possessed you and made you rape and kill your daughter to produce "garmonbozia" it could feed on, or is it worse you just plain raped and killed your own daughter? I'd always go with the latter. People aren't epic, and when they act like this, maybe they don't deserve to be.
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Date: 2011-04-15 03:06 pm (UTC)Yeah, "evil" isn't a word I use for people, pretty much ever. I mainly use it for actions, I guess, and even then, I'm more likely to use some other word, like "cruel." If 98 percent of a person's actions are cruel, selfish, etc., then--wow, that's too bad. But I still don't use the term "evil," as it happens. Just, I guess, because it's a pretty grandiose term? I do use the word sometimes, though.
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Date: 2011-04-15 03:48 pm (UTC)Off-topic, but BOB is one of the few fictional demons that really viscerally scares me. I mean, to the point that when I see people say/write things like "fire walk with me" in ref. to the show I'm like "shhhhhh!"
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Date: 2011-04-15 04:38 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2011-04-15 10:55 pm (UTC)self doubt and hedging rear their heads
Date: 2011-04-15 06:09 am (UTC)Re: self doubt and hedging rear their heads
Date: 2011-04-15 01:13 pm (UTC)Re: self doubt and hedging rear their heads
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Date: 2011-04-15 02:25 pm (UTC)I think that what works about Hostage to the Devil is that most of us have probably gotten trapped in these thought-patterns at least once, so they ping as familiar, and yet every time it happens there's this visceral need for them to have to come from "somewhere else", to be the result of sustained psychic attack rather than just a chemical bi-product of our own brains/bodies. And therefore you can see that version of Catholicism as either a welcome placebo or no different from (say) Buddhist affirmations, a way to break the cycle and re-train our mode of thinking, thus re-integrating ourselves, putting our "protection" back in place.
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Date: 2011-04-15 03:02 pm (UTC)That's an interesting thought. Yeah, I suppose the whole "why the fuck am I here, what is my purpose" train of thought can lead one down that road, certainly, although I don't know if I have a visceral need to make them come from somewhere else. I guess if they come from somewhere else I don't know how to fix them, and it's in someone else's hands (someone bad). But this is probably my lack of a religious mindset talking.
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Date: 2011-04-15 03:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-04-15 04:40 pm (UTC)Yes, and you can see that train of thought leading to the conclusion that all imagination of any sort is stupid, etc., when really the capacity to imagine, in addition to being vastly entertaining, is both a coping method and a valuable tool for survival.
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Date: 2011-04-16 04:38 pm (UTC)I wouldn't want to judge any religion by random practitioners, in this case people in the contemporary U.S. that have a thousand other reasons for being the way they are. I feel like I still formed beliefs that way in middle school and parts of high school, but by the time I got to college I didn't really have any thing against Christianity or theism in general. I certainly never felt any real anger toward Christianity or God or anything either.
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