so it is before the walls of minas tirith, the doom of our time will be decided.

[intertribal]

The letter says I'm to be posted in Jakarta.  All subject to security clearance approval, of course.  It's a good thing we cleaned out at least some of those old boxes in the garage this winter: my mother has to dig through all her old address books.  She sounded strange on the phone telling me this but I think I can guess why.  I've never spent a whole summer away from her (only half of one at most); this is a country whose chapter she has personally closed on a bitter-sour note, the country where people die too often, where she buried my father.  I don't think she thinks this is really happening.  I know that she will never go back.  But I also know, and have known since Melbourne, that I will.

I'm going to start reading Kompas (floods, as always, crippling the city). 

Thinking about going back makes me all sorts of queasy and this is an embassy they have to close from time to time because of threats and forty hours a week might kill me but God, oh my God.  I am so ready for this. 

Comments

[royinpink.livejournal.com]

aside from sleep-deprivation intensifying my feeling exhausted and worthless, and aside from irritation stemming from this and other things getting in the way of my plans to not be worthless and accomplish lots of work, no, I have no idea. maybe that's sufficient explanation, but maybe i'm more hormonal lately. it seems heavier than usual. I actually got a headache and cramps, when I don't normally have that much physical pain. and before the PMS stage (which involved crying), i was abnormally influenced by "ovulation" or whatnot, really attracted to every man nearby, you know...

[intertribal.livejournal.com]

Urrgh, better get sleep and food then. To be honest i was in a pretty crappy mood for the first two weeks of school (exhaustion, worthlessness being par for the course)... getting this news gave me a little boost, shall we say. I hope the same sort of thing happens for you. I wouldn't take your feelings during your slump very seriously.

I don't know why you'd be more hormonal, but, I'm not a doctor.

[royinpink.livejournal.com]

Yeah, i am really craving grilled cheese. This might be difficult...i dunno if we have cheese. cool, thanks, i'm trying to be better about that...

i am more hormonal 'cause my body's a bitch i must beat into submission!

[intertribal.livejournal.com]

uh... I think it would win...

[royinpink.livejournal.com]

lol.

mind over matter and soul before flesh!

[intertribal.livejournal.com]

dance for God, do not dance for the flesh!