Right, so you choose who you want to have a family with. I don't think that for me proximity is part of it at all, but I suppose that's because I actually bonded with my family? I mean, what family is supposed to be is people that are more important than space and time, a "gang" as Lexi calls it. Your own tribe. And it has nothing to do with proximity.
I actually don't think I've ever had the experience of walking into a street at the wrong time or anything. It's more just not being totally engaged with the world out of my head... although I still pay enough attention to street signs. It's like having an in-joke all to yourself, that no one else understands (which is incidentally why I feel no one will ever understand me). Or like knowing some big secret about the world that no one else knows, although that one's harder to explain. I suppose you could also call it a huge extension on the imaginary friend idea. Not that I had any imaginary friends. I always had a very strong sense of control/direction of the elaborate kidnap/rescue games I'd play at age 3. I was always the auteur, so to speak.
Well, obviously I don't know for sure if it will work for me. But based on what I know of myself, I think I will have a much more fulfilling life if I have a family. I don't want that to be all there is, obviously, and it may be hard, but I think I want it to be part of my life.
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Date: 2009-08-10 02:34 am (UTC)I actually don't think I've ever had the experience of walking into a street at the wrong time or anything. It's more just not being totally engaged with the world out of my head... although I still pay enough attention to street signs. It's like having an in-joke all to yourself, that no one else understands (which is incidentally why I feel no one will ever understand me). Or like knowing some big secret about the world that no one else knows, although that one's harder to explain. I suppose you could also call it a huge extension on the imaginary friend idea. Not that I had any imaginary friends. I always had a very strong sense of control/direction of the elaborate kidnap/rescue games I'd play at age 3. I was always the auteur, so to speak.
Well, obviously I don't know for sure if it will work for me. But based on what I know of myself, I think I will have a much more fulfilling life if I have a family. I don't want that to be all there is, obviously, and it may be hard, but I think I want it to be part of my life.
Good luck on the GRE!