It's hard work to be proud of something when someone you trust tells you you're shit at it. It's also tiring. Sometimes I can't do it, and that's my weakness. So you believe them when they think you "don't have a life and therefore can't write anything worth anything anyway"?

Yeah, that's creepy/unhealthy.

I wish it were that effortless for me (I don't even know what to call it. not writing, exactly. philosophy?). I mean, it is, but I get in the way of myself in other ways, which can make me feel pretty worthless. You're lucky.

Good luck.