But the difference is, they're judging you for things that you have pride in. You can defend yourself on that scale. They judge me for things I wish I could fix but for some reason haven't been able to. And it's like rubbing salt in the wound. If they judged me for wanting to write, I would just laugh at them - but they would never judge me for that. It's totally different to be judged for not being in a relationship, which is hardly a life philosophy or passion.
No, because my mother wants me to stay at home and be her little girl forever and ever, because as she points out she is miserable when I'm not at home.
I wouldn't be able to function without writing or thinking about writing. Or maybe I could - I haven't tried. However, I'm not sure it's because any other life seems meaningless to me. It's because it's the thing I enjoy doing the most, and it feels as much a part of me as breathing. I feel compelled more than anything else. What I have to choose between is how much of my life I want to devote to writing, because 100% isn't possible. 0% also isn't possible. It's not fear that I won't get recognition or approval that's the down side of writing for me.
It's the fact that writing is such a solitary activity. Most people don't even travel to write like you can travel to study things like dance (taking my mother as an example). It's all that being-trapped-in-your-own-head-ness. That kind of thing fucks with me, which is why I need a day job and a life if I want to write.
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No, because my mother wants me to stay at home and be her little girl forever and ever, because as she points out she is miserable when I'm not at home.
I wouldn't be able to function without writing or thinking about writing. Or maybe I could - I haven't tried. However, I'm not sure it's because any other life seems meaningless to me. It's because it's the thing I enjoy doing the most, and it feels as much a part of me as breathing. I feel compelled more than anything else. What I have to choose between is how much of my life I want to devote to writing, because 100% isn't possible. 0% also isn't possible. It's not fear that I won't get recognition or approval that's the down side of writing for me.
It's the fact that writing is such a solitary activity. Most people don't even travel to write like you can travel to study things like dance (taking my mother as an example). It's all that being-trapped-in-your-own-head-ness. That kind of thing fucks with me, which is why I need a day job and a life if I want to write.