a sense of joy and then a panic

or maybe you meant something different by that than i first read it as. anyway, bourdieu suggests that rules don't exist as anything individuals live by but rather an ideal that they understand and perhaps have to 'play by', but not anything that determines their behavior. what could be considered unconscious for him is more the 'dispositions' of the habitus, which have to be learned and modified in context. so... a habitus could be suited to following the rules, but the rules didn't form the habitus.