Well, they sound like airheads to me, and I don't respect airheads as equals. For me they need to have a passion and dedication to something, or I don't take them seriously, much less consider them a stable provider (lol). And you don't respect them as equals because of this airheadedness, right?
No biggie, that was a really long post that was very heavy on the football (more so than anything about me other than things I really think should be obvious about leadership). I don't think I've put a lot of thought into what I'm attracted to, and certainly this new development has changed things somewhat because it's a much more intense and visceral feeling than I've had before. I mean, he's not like AC. But the thing is, with AC, I never felt physical desire, and when it was in my dreams it was always really skeezy and made me feel nauseated. This is going to be way too much tmi but I don't think I've felt actual physical desire maybe ever, at least the sort that isn't just a "oh, he is cute", middle school-ish sort of thing. That's all sorts of weird, I know, but what can I say? I'm starting to think that I've spent the last ten years "coming to terms with" my father's death and like I have to sort of start forging my own way in various aspects of my life now, but that's kind of a tangent.
Anyway. Mr. Quarterback does fit a certain "type" I sort of have, and that's the Paladin (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paladin). Because it's his history at Nebraska that got him my attention in the first place. Before I heard ye olde tragic paste he was just another name on a roster of players, all of whom I wanted to do well uniformly, and it was after I heard the whole thing that I paid him attention enough to figure out what he looked like under the helmet and read his post-game quotes, and by then it was the end of the season, so frak me, you know? The Paladin thing is why I feel for Friday Night Lights so much and The Song of Roland and all that shit. Doesn't quite explain Aragorn (Faramir is more a Paladin, but Faramir always seemed more driven by a desire to appease Daddy than protect Gondor, so he fails, and Boromir? Please). Yet he's also sarcastic and smart and that sort of fulfills the same traits I like in AC.
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Date: 2009-01-16 04:55 am (UTC)Well, they sound like airheads to me, and I don't respect airheads as equals. For me they need to have a passion and dedication to something, or I don't take them seriously, much less consider them a stable provider (lol). And you don't respect them as equals because of this airheadedness, right?
No biggie, that was a really long post that was very heavy on the football (more so than anything about me other than things I really think should be obvious about leadership). I don't think I've put a lot of thought into what I'm attracted to, and certainly this new development has changed things somewhat because it's a much more intense and visceral feeling than I've had before. I mean, he's not like AC. But the thing is, with AC, I never felt physical desire, and when it was in my dreams it was always really skeezy and made me feel nauseated. This is going to be way too much tmi but I don't think I've felt actual physical desire maybe ever, at least the sort that isn't just a "oh, he is cute", middle school-ish sort of thing. That's all sorts of weird, I know, but what can I say? I'm starting to think that I've spent the last ten years "coming to terms with" my father's death and like I have to sort of start forging my own way in various aspects of my life now, but that's kind of a tangent.
Anyway. Mr. Quarterback does fit a certain "type" I sort of have, and that's the Paladin (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Paladin). Because it's his history at Nebraska that got him my attention in the first place. Before I heard ye olde tragic paste he was just another name on a roster of players, all of whom I wanted to do well uniformly, and it was after I heard the whole thing that I paid him attention enough to figure out what he looked like under the helmet and read his post-game quotes, and by then it was the end of the season, so frak me, you know? The Paladin thing is why I feel for Friday Night Lights so much and The Song of Roland and all that shit. Doesn't quite explain Aragorn (Faramir is more a Paladin, but Faramir always seemed more driven by a desire to appease Daddy than protect Gondor, so he fails, and Boromir? Please). Yet he's also sarcastic and smart and that sort of fulfills the same traits I like in AC.