a sense of joy and then a panic

Well, we're not like WHOA different but we're still pretty different in the endeavors we take, even if we have similar principles or end-goals. I don't do intellectual endeavors and that's just how I am. That probably means I don't see what you see in them, but you also don't see what I do in other things, you know. That doesn't necessarily mean anything about "understanding" the appeal, in a sympathetic rather than empathetic way, of paths not taken. It just means we're looking at it through different sets of eyes.