That's interesting. I think losing stability--not fucking up, but feeling the weight of my parents, internalized expectations, and all of that gone, which I only feel in glimpses--is probably one of the best feelings I've had. Intimidating, but so free and unworried. I first had this feeling while I was in China. I don't know if that's what you mean, but it's what I associate with a loss of stability.
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Date: 2009-01-09 02:50 pm (UTC)Anyway, I wish you luck and all that.