I've been thinking 'bout you, baby/ see, it almost makes me crazy.

I've been listening to this song/watching this video on repeat since yesterday.  I was also finishing writing a scene of the novel's second installment that just wanted to be born - and while the scene itself is more disturbing than sad, while I was digesting it and its consequences I started watching "Live With Me" by Massive Attack (a random single they released all alone in 2006).  Then I couldn't stop.  And now I'm like, geez, do I really want to write something that's this depressing?  But of course I "have to."  It's what I want for the story.  I want to take what I've started to its logical conclusion.  I am writing it for a reason.  The logical conclusion just kind of sucks.

Warning: Video is HELLA DEPRESSING.

My MC actually isn't an alcoholic, mostly because it's not biologically possible.  He just has Complex-PTSD and he's been conditioned to kill and all that.

Bonus depressing song (I'm just a barrel of laughs today): "Follow the Leader" by Matthew Ryan.  It was in a House episode, that's where everybody seems to know it from.