I know you do (try to be honest with yourself, etc.). Really. Hopefully a good therapist would guide you toward doing things that would help that process, make the falls less deep and painful (because there are always falls). Yeah, I hear that a lot (the parents thing)... and I know your parents are extra scary (at least to me) so I understand that as a barrier, but... considering your father's in therapy, I'd hope they'd understand. You don't like a lot of people? Really? Good to know...

When I was telling my mom about how we've stayed close for years and all that (as opposed to some of my other friends from high school) she suggested it's because we're intellectually compatible, so, you know, have a lot of respect for yourself too. You know I have been in pretty shit places in my life and quite frankly I know I'd be a lot worse off if it weren't for therapy in middle school and college.