Also, it's a two-part problem. There's the schoolwork, and there is my mood. Where I like to say they correlate, they don't always. Right now, I'm in a fine mood (which is why I can write at all...). And yet, 8 or so hours ago, I was not. Freshman year, I think I was depressed...I wanted nothing more than to sleep, I cried so much, had no real drive, etc. And last year I was paranoid. I never slept. And then I had breakdowns. This year, it's slightly different...I do okay for awhile, and then I freak out again, and then I talk myself out of it again...it's getting, I don't know, faster or something. Also, crying only happened yesterday morning. I actually haven't done that for awhile. Midterms, maybe? I don't remember crying then. Well, when I get stressed about presenting or speaking in Chinese, sometimes I get near crying, but that's different. No tears about problem sets like last year...

And yet, in terms of how well I'm doing in school, it's better than last year, but not by much. Part of it really is just how I see things and not how well, objectively, I'm doing. But they're both problems.